Why is it so hard to appreciate what we have when it comes to training our horses? I have been feeling a bit frustrated by the slight regression with Stinker. In reality it hasn't been bad or really much of a step back. He has just needed some lighter days with less drilling, which is totally normal. I am not ok with working for days on end and not having a mental break.
Last year this time, he wouldn't walk under saddle. Period, not at all. I could get very reluctant halts with lots of inverted piaffe. I thought I would be happy when he would just freaking walk. In January, he started walking consistently. I was happy with that for all of five minutes (slight exaggeration, it probably was closer to two weeks) and then I moved on to wishing he would stretch.
We figured out the stretching, then I moved on to another thing and so on and so forth. I need to remember to take a moment and enjoy what we can do and stop worrying about what we aren't doing. All of that will come with time (and its own set of problems).
I should appreciate the fact that I rarely cry because I am so frustrated with my horse now. Can't say that about last fall. Side note: Crying is my default emotion it really isn't hard for that to happen. Watch a sappy commercial=cry; read a happy article=cry; get really hungry/tired=cry...you get the point.
I appreciate the fact that when I am feeling lazy I can hop on my horse bareback and not even loop the lead rope around for reins. He even seems to love me...ok that is only when I have his bucket of timothy but I am the only one that feeds it to him, so he loves me damn it. Oh and he loves me when I have honey crisp apples. He is so spoiled that he won't eat red apples any more.
We really have come a long way together and I do appreciate the journey even when I get muddled down with all the details. I thought about posting a direct comparison from last year to this year, but last year was to cringe inducing. It is all there for the world wide web to see if you really want to look. I am just not making it that easy :)