This past weekend I was able to watch a clinic with the trainer that my trainer rides with. It was a very good clinic and I enjoyed watching it, but it left me with mixed feelings. All the horses were giant warmbloods, most were younger than Stinker and far more advanced.
Part of me was wondering why on earth I thought I could do this. I don't have the desire (or money) to pay a trainer to train my horse for me. I do not have a horse with 5 figure gaits. I don't even have a steady horse. I do have a a horse with significant physical challenges and the last thing I want to do is push too hard and have an unhappy unsound horse.
What I do have is the willingness to put in the time. I have a horse I am perfectly capable of riding. While he is a little too sensitive it isn't anything I can't handle. I have a horse I enjoy working with, and don't feel the need to pay someone else to train him. He is a hard worker and always provides me with a laugh.
So while he may not be able to prance around with all the fancy tricks of a five figure horse, what I have is good enough. I have something I enjoy and don't feel pressure to live up to anything. We may not ever win anything, but I think he can get me the beginning scores for my bronze medal. Plus I really can't picture taking a hulking WB out in the hills to get these shots.